Escape to San Juan Batangas

Its the time of the year again when the sea is calling for me. I have spent few days in Batangas for relaxation and meditation. This past few months have been taking a toll on me. And I need a recharge.

I love photography. I wish to have a spanking laptop so that I will be able to enhance my editing skills and video editing. (Fiance says he will buy me one, but I will save something just in case. The one I had at home keeps on hanging on me. I have been using it since college).

I was able to enjoy my stay here. Of course the foods are sumptuous which is a real deal breaker. I was surprise that I was able to gobble as much food as before since my appetite has been off this past few months. Maybe the provincial air is good for me.

I wish to go to Sagada or Benguet but sadly my fiance wouldn't let me. Oh well..

Valentine's Surprise

Today I received a Valentine's from my fiance. It came as a surprise because I was not expecting anything from him. We are not the type of couple who celebrate Valentine's Day as a rule, a simple date will suffice. Also, I am not the type of girl who demands outrageous gesture from my fiance.

It came as a surprise to me when he began to badger me to stay at the office a little bit longer. According to him, he has some delivery from Jollibee for me. I am thinking maybe his valentine for me this year is dinner which is nice of him. But a much bigger package was being hand over to me by our security guard.

Inside the box contains every Valentine's gift that a girl can have.

However, it seems that "harlot" is keeping tracks of my activity. Because she messaged me the next day about receiving Chocolates, flowers, balloon and teddy bear. And it put me in a bad mood. What is it to her if I've got valentine's gifts? She said she wants help in figuring things out. No need to figure things out - my impression of her will always be - A SLUT! Because what kind of decent woman that will engage/accept the advances of a man who is already engaged/committed to someone else? I thought she is not idiot as to go after my fiance as her ex told me? Or that my fiance is not handsome enough for her to fall head over heels with, again according to her ex. Seems she enjoy being the third party.

Woman like that is way way beneath me. I would never have spread my legs for someone that is not mine to begin me nor will I ever be free with kisses.


To end, I would wish every girl a happy valentine's day. To those who never gave up despite being emotionally tortured by the other woman!

Girls Like You

I will not only brand you with a scarlet letter, but also with a big sign that says “hypocrite.” You are giving in to the societal pressures that pin girls against one another. You are responsible for making it too tempting to slut-shame, to hate you.

I don't know how to talk to you. Rationally I know we can't be that different, but at my very core I believe that there's no common ground between girls like you and girls like me.

You are always full of excuses as to why what went down is not your fault.

You walk around, talking about him in your Instagram. Like your one sentence was enough to rationalize your behavior. There is no way to convince me that what you did was okay or excusable.

You made a choice, a decision to barrel through our relationship that we so meticulously built and you crushed everything. No half of the story is going to change the fact that you participated in something that left me feeling broken and completely alone.

Your excuses are irrelevant.

You had a choice. There is always a moment when you can either say "Yes I will do this" - choosing to live with consequences - or walk away.

Maybe you are at peace with the consequences. maybe you are fine with your choices.

Regardless, I will never forgive girls like you.